Dear diary,
Why am I afraid to write? I never believe in fear, no matter what happens I just face everything regardless, I think I'm specially created, I think God's gat me but then I think I just found my fear and it might just be me afterall! I'm just scared to be sometimes, but then can you blame me? Been an 'Athena' lol...well I'm a handful, I know, with so much strength and extraordinary abilities and ideas and dreams that scare me! I've seen things, done things but I also realise been me is all I've got in the end! When all is gone, I've got Me, my LEGACY and it's gotta be LEGENDARY...Many thanks dearest J for giving all that I have and this is me saying I am ready! its the rebirth! Seasons greetings...kisses..

Dear diary,
Its December and usually the period of thanksgiving but then should there be a particular day, time or season set aside for thanksgiving? I think we should give thanks everyday we see!
Anyway! deep breath....it was thanksgiving Sunday yesterday in church and we had an amazing service! damn! church was full with lots of beautiful people in different beautiful attires, from native to corporate and all....and guess what??? testimonies that bring more hope even if you were on the verge of giving up and to crown it  all, this woman after a very touching testimony, looking all beautiful, she said she promised God to roll on the floor, shocking what people believe in but then you bet it works for them...to my greatest surprise, I am pretty sure the rest of the folks in church were stunned too, the lady rolled on the floor! oh well....*smiling*
 Well,  like i said its thanksgiving and everyone knows just how best to be thankful in their own way, as for me, it was a moment of realization of God's love for me, just then, I went back memory lane and it occurred to me that I have not exactly been so thankful by the way! Really, I cant thank Him enough, I just like to think of myself as specially created...do not be jealous....hahaha...*winks* It's thanksgiving peoples.....take out time to just be thankful, don't ask anything
the guest preacher, pastor Tokunbo said something that sounded funny  but was a fact, he said...people just 'in January, May, all through the year and with some us, its just query and tasking and then we forget that even to see the next day and breathe is a gift! now that is a real lesson!

Dear diary,
It's a morning of mixed emotions since the news of my second icon 'Madiba', 'Nelson' Ixhiosa Mandela.. very early the news of his long sleep woke me up and I kept having random thoughts like, why can't some people just ascend to heaven or live forever?? Every July, which is our month of birth,(Nelson n I)  I'm reminded that I cannot afford to be afraid to leave a legacy!
Is there really more to say? Something new? I don't think so as truly, my heart is heavy but at the same time I'm thankful for your commitment to fighting justice and inspiring me.. this may be a pretty long sleep but sleep well till we meet in a more peaceful world, where there are no wars nor racism anymore..
Sleep on Ixhiosa , sleep on my fearless icon...the legacy remains and I will keep up the fight for the 'ordinary man' in any way that I can...

dear diary,

OK! breathing heavily..... and I was driving through a school when on a second thought, I got in for lots of reasons best known to me..lately, the hunger and urge to do something more keeps increasing and I am seriously on the look out, paying attention..
To my greatest shock, the secondary school did not have a photocopying machine! now hello, this school is in Port Harcourt not in my village, a secondary school not even a primary school, located on the road to the University of Port Harcourt, students were sent out to do photocopying, hence been exposed to the probability of missing classes and other important stuff that could happen in school and the big questions like, where do we go from here? when are the children gonna be taken a bit more seriously? why are our leaders, elected and appointed too busy fighting for relevance and power when the easiest way to be relevant and powerful is to show Love through works? and more popped outta my head! I am not a supporter of any group in particular but if someone is elected or appointed, he/she should be respected and given the benefit of doubt especially when he/she appears to have a plan and is working. Most of our secondary schools are in a mess apart from the private schools and this is not cool not even in the simplest form.

I was there and students were queried for not bringing their cutlasses and brooms etc and were asked to leave without getting certain benefits like school cardigan and more... SERIOUSLY?? very nice to come down and out of your world to really see and know what people go through. It was disheartening and thought provoking to watch them, so sad and all I could was weep in my heart and pray and hope things would change, I wished things could change by the snapping of my fingers and I truly must make a change soon which is one thing i wanna achieve by writing this piece, the word of God says, write the vision and make it plain.. so help me God.

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